Summer is Coming

I’ve been told, more than once, to slow down, take it easy, relax, and have faith that more will be revealed. I’ve also been told, not lately, not since I started hanging with a more spiritual-ish/West Coast kind of crowd, to buckle down, get it together, work harder, but also “smarter,” but also, be available, live my values, manifest abundance, and tune my vibration to the frequency of love. Yup. But also, feel my feelings, but (unspoken-ish messaging) not too loudly, not too long, not too publicly or else I’m not doing it right.

And then, there’s this deep inner knowing thing that persists and says, “What-Ever.” My Deep Inner Knowing (DIK) talks like a Valley Girl, with a touch of thug. She says, “What-Ever, Sascha. You are like, so fierce just as you are. Be effing sad. Be effing desperate. Do that grieving thing like a total Boss B loud and proud and prickly. You got this! Feel it to heal it, babe.” Babe in a cool, hot girl way not crybaby way.

And I’m like, “OMGggg DIK is right. This bleeding in public is some badassery fur shur. Plus, reaching out for help Like It’s My Job so walking the talk.” Plus holy sh-t connecting with peeps from the past who are like, “Me Effing Too.”

A friend/teacher reached out and gave me helpful language. He said I am doing something called grieving which is a normal and healthy state of affairs following a loss and that it’s also normal to not have a lot of skills for this grieving thing because we are generally taught how to get things - grades, jobs, lovers, stuff - but not how to lose things and recover.

So great. Then he sold me some coaching and I bought it and I’m using it now and it’s maybe helping.  So I will discuss with him how much of his stuff is ok to share here as I do and if you want his deets reach out to me and I’ll connect you.

So that’s the update and I’m living in the moment but also lifted within knowing that Summer is coming. I’m gonna keep going.

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