True Confession

The true confession is that today I live in a state of peaceful, pleasant presence and acceptance most days, most of the time.  Fairly automatically, I notice when I have a thought that takes me out of that state or mood and I can bring myself back to that place.

From that place of grounded-ness, of comfort, doing whatever needs doing is way more doable.

This way of being, for me, is 100% learned, learned from others, earned through trial and error and practice.  And by being willing to be extremely uncomfortable, to challenge my  ideas and priorities, and to let go of whatever isn’t working.

So I’m pretty excited about this newer, more pleasant, heck — totally upgraded — default setting that’s emerged.  And yeah, I’m excited about sharing what’s working or not working for me and listening to what is or isn’t working for you in a friend/informal/non-business-y/we’re all in this together way.  

For so long I disdained people who were happy, especially ones trying to sell me their particular recipe for feeling better.  I fancied that if I achieved these xyz external goals, made these external changes, then I’d be happy.  But that’s not how it worked for me.  

I was pissed off at anyone who suggested my  challenges might be of my own making, mental, or chemical. Then I had this thought, “If I’m so smart why am I so miserable?” Making “not being miserable” a goal set me on a path of trying on all kinds of stuff and seeing what worked and didn’t work for me.

Today I’ve got a recipe that works for myself and I’m grateful. And I’m grateful that at some point I decided to get on not feeling miserable as if it were a decent enough goal in and of itself. It has been for me. I’m gonna keep going.

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