Count to 1000

In some situations, counting to ten, or even 100, just doesn’t cut it. It’s not enough to get my brain back in my body and stop whatever emotional hijacking is going on.

It really stinks when I speak or act from that automatic amygdala place, which never says or does what my higher self would do, what my more rational in-my-power-self would do. It’s like - SNAP - and then it’s out there, the harsh comeback, the abrupt departure, the do-or-die, claws-out defense in response to something that has nothing to do with me. In response to something I don’t need to defend against, because it can’t hurt me if I do my deal and take care of my own inner world.

And when I’m hungry, angry, lonely, tired, in pain, or otherwise depleted, I need more help to stay out of that spot, that act-now-think-later spot. And I am depleted. I hurt in my body and I’m stressed in my life. I’m doing what I can to reduce the pain, reduce the stress, but in the meantime I gotta put some other safeguards in place.

So the new pause is a 1000 count. The holiday pause. If I’m hurt, angry, tired, or in any kind of emotionally elevated state, I’m gonna count to 1000 before saying or doing anything.

I’m going to hook up to the life force and breathe, in and out, 1000 times, and then go from there. That’s the plan. I’m gonna keep going.

Thank you.