Rainbow City

I’m not alone!!! I really used that phone yesterday calling folks I wasn’t sure I could call to ask for help – and I got it! I even took some advice, and didn’t take some advice, and I got through the day and felt much much better at the end of it. Like jubilant. Like a survivor of a shipwreck once the storm has passed. I texted Mike, “Babe let’s break out the lime fizzy water tonight – we’re celebrating!” And we did celebrate, at home, with quinoa risotto and fizzy water, and a high-energy dance performance by Ax. And my mind was free of the thoughts that had been running in the background and foreground for a few days solid, like a wall of thoughts keeping me from the beauty of my life.

It’s like when the movie goes from black and white to color in The Wizard of Oz, how much better and more vibrant everything seems when that mental veil lifts. And it does lift, but not by force or will or desire.

It lifts by eating right, sleeping right, exercising right, socializing right, doing right in the world, and asking for and receiving help when I need it. Then I get to be in a place where maybe I can help others.

I have felt like a black cloud for a while now, but today it’s rainbow city. I’m gonna keep going.