School-itis

My stomach has been upset for several days now and I was really hoping today would be the day I’d wake up and it would be not upset but today is not that day. It is still upset and I’m in this confused place of wondering, “Well do I not eat at all, or do I eat pineapple (which apparently has good digestive enzymes) or do I have one boiled egg or ….?” I definitely don’t skip the coffee with milk though I know for sure every single nutritional person I’d ever meet would probably tell me to skip the coffee with milk. So while drinking my coffee with milk I googled Louise Hay’s take on it and there are several entries that suggest tummy troubles relate to “fear of the new.” I’m supposed to say the affirmation, “All is well. I digest life with ease. I relax and allow my mind to be peaceful.” I can do that.

All is well. I digest life with ease. I relax and allow my mind to be peaceful. All is well. I digest life with ease. I relax and allow my mind to be peaceful. All is well. I digest life with ease. I relax and allow my mind to be peaceful. All is well. I digest life with ease. I relax and allow my mind to be peaceful.

Ok, that wasn’t bad. Last night was a gathering for incoming kindergarteners and their parents. It seems like a very nice group. Ax seemed to spend most of the time playing on his own and I kind of bustled around feeling like the other parents seemed to already know each other. Mike talked to one other dad we’d met before the entire time, plus watched Ax to make sure Ax was “okay.”

I know I’m supposed to keep repeating that all is well and that I digest life with ease but the reality is all is well and I don’t digest life with ease. I have school-itis for our new kindergarten. I’m worried for Ax who is completely fine and I feel like the clueless unprepared mom before school has even started. I don’t know where this feeling of less-than-ness came from or why it’s here at all but I’m pretty sure just saying it’s not there is not the way that’s gonna work for me to get through it. But I will get through it. I’m going to keep going. All is well. I don’t feel awesome. I’m going to keep going anyway.